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One slight outburst of crazy, but I seem to be maintaining myself better than I anticipated now. Huh.
I have no idea why. Maybe my mind is actually beginning to better itself a bit. Took it fuckin' long enough. Feh.
Why the hell am I awake?
Ugh. I hate daylight.
If you want to know how far to go to hell
Just ask me
If you want to see the view from your knees
Come down and join me
I'm the final straw
The nail in the coffin
Just by being who I am
Is so goddamned

I'm not the master of the Universe
I walk the Earth the wrong way
Met my potential and fulfilled the worst
My best is cursed the wrong way

And when I die I'm gonna fly and come and get you
And when you try and run I'll be the curse above you

In the race for disaster I will come in first
I've come a long way
I went the wrong way
Haunts always return. You can't sweep them under the rug and pretend they don't exist. No, no. That's what leads one to the state I find myself in, even now.
The edge... There is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is, and how it feels, are the ones who have gone over.
Some days I feel like there should be a countdown. A ticking, even, synchronized with the bomb that is myself.
I revel in it. I also loathe it. I treasure it. Yet, I fear myself.

I can be reasoned with, though. I have rational thought.
They may soon see that which is worse than me.

I did give warning. Heed it.

I hold no responsibility over my own actions, or for what relapses from this point, onward.

“Men have called me mad; but the question is not yet settled, whether madness is or is not the loftiest intelligence– whether much that is glorious– whether all that is profound– does not spring from disease of thought– from moods of mind exalted at the expense of the general intellect.”
― Edgar Allan Poe

Meme thing, because I'm bored

Random Friendslist Generator by katstevens

Where does #9 live?: Normally in Shadovan, but currently in the closet, about twelve rooms down from mine.
What's #4's favorite color?: I'm not sure. Something shiny, I would assume.
How did you meet #2?: I don't particularly know either of them well. Probably just from around here.
Does #10 have any pets?: Me. Meow. Well, and that mouse of his.
Who on the list have you known the longest?: 10.
Who on the list lives furthest away from you?: I have no idea. Probably 1 or 4. I don't know where they actually reside.
Who on the list owes you a mixed CD?: A...what?
Who is #8 going out with?: Recently wed to Nelphee.
Is #9 a boy or a girl?: Male. Or so I think.
Would #11 and #2 make a cute couple?: Um. No. Just...no. Well, I could see it with the redhead.
What is #6's favorite band?: I'm not sure. I should find out. Something twangy, no doubt.
Does #1 have any siblings?: I would have no way of knowing.
Would you ever date #7?: Date? Unlikely. I might do other things to him, though.
What's #10's middle name?: If he has one, he's never informed me of it. Huh. Now I'm curious.
What's #5's favourite thing to do?: Julian.
Tell me a random fact about #11: You really don't want me to answer this one.
And #4: He's been especially kind to me, as of lately.
And #3: He doesn't trust me. I doubt he ever will.
Congratulations, Nelphee. I know you probably won't see this for a while, but when you do, I hope your night is fun and that tomorrow is fantastic for you.